Fresh start?

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

How can i say that i'm starting fresh when i've already finished my first block mid term exam for this semester? I wasn't really well prepared for the mid term and the faults are all mine to shoulder. There are so many " I should have"s popping into my mind again & again when i pondered back as how blank i was upon answering the exam. Should have prepared myself better. There you go, 1 one my "I should have"s.

Oh well, we can't do anything about the past but we can do something about the future.

Whatever happens, happens. Just face it & don't run away.

This past few days were very tiring for me to the extent that i couldn't stay awake during lectures but i can't afford to skip lectures because i'm the Aural Type. I learn best & remember best when i hear other people explaining the subject to me. So, I finally got some leisure time to actually sit down and study properly since the start of the new block. That's why i'm saying that i'm starting fresh.

With the more ever hectic schedule and the added responsibilities that i have to bear for this semester, i kept on telling myself this lines when i feel like i couldn't do this anymore:

"If i can't manage to juggle between studies, responsibilities, and hereafter thingy(going to kuliah2 ngaji, agama, bgn qiam, puasa sunat, etc) now, how can i manage being a real doctor with real responsibilities plus family(parents, husband, children, siblings, granmas) plus hereafter stuffs?"

I just noticed that i have a very high self-esteem. Some people might even feel annoyed by my high optimism and motivations. Always have to look on the bright side and stuffs. I guess the credits goes to my father. He practically gave me a book entitled "Your Road Map To Success" by John C. Maxwell. I was 12 at that time. It was in English and used complex words. Not your usual light reading. I actually read it out of curiosity. There were also books by John C. Maxwell about Leaders(couldn't remember the actual title) and "Fail Forward" but i just went through them a bit.

"I thought you are always sure of yourself."-->my father said this to me to boost my self-esteem last year when i screwed up a bit for my midterm.

Oh yeah father, i just got my results for last semester, do you want to know how i did? :p
Am i obliged to tell you and mom everytime i got my exams' results?
Coz really, i won't tell if you don't ask...:D

Agak2 berdosa ke kalau tak bagitahu parents camne result exam?

JUST DO IT ANYWAY~

We think that seeing things that we are forbidden to see but are now common in the society is ok when it actually hardens the heart to the extent that you don't know that your heart is being hardened day by day. For example, seeing other people's aurat. So, lower your gaze girls & boys~!

Word of the day: Oncomelania

Until next time~

Wassalam.