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بسم الله الرحمن الحيم

Suatu hari, cikgu bertanya kpd anak2 muridnya,

"Apakah nikmat yg paling besar yg pernah kamu terima?"

Anak murid pon menjawab,

"Mendapat kasih sayang Allah."

Selalunya tipikal jawapan yang akan diberi oleh pelajar2 adalah

nikmat iman & Islam...

Tetapi pelajar2 ni kali tu jawab bahawa
the greatest gift that they can get in life is getting Allah's love.

Can you ever find someone that won't push you away and still give you everything that you needed and probably, He would even give you things that you wanted eventhough you have always been breaking your promises with Him. You are always late to meet Him on each appointment 5 times daily. Then, when you meet up with Him, your heart is not really there. Your mind wanders away though your lips are moving saying something to Him. He knows that you don't even understand what you babble to Him 5 times a day but then, at the end of the appointment, when you have the liberty to ask for something, He is still willing to hear and consider giving you what you want. Oh, how ignorant we are when like a couple of minutes ago, we were so unfocused in the conversation and then, ask for forgiveness for being so. Where is the sincerity huh?

You see, that is how much Allah loves us.

Even if we reflect with the real life.
Only those who loves us for who we are can stand our annoying bad habits and antics.

I'm grateful O Allah that you still let this heart of mine to feel.
To feel guilt when i'm not doing the right thing.
To feel your love O Allah.
To feel calmness when reading the Quran.
To feel bad when I lose my temper.
To be able to sense it
when the heart is starting to lose its sensitivity towards good and bad deeds.

The states of heart:
1. The healthy heart :)
2. The weak heart.
3. The sick heart.
4. The DEAD heart which is as hard as stone.

Oh, how i miss going to the religious classes for reverts back in Malaysia.
The lectures were simple, easy to understand, in English, and very lecture like.
I hope all the reverts are doing well in their life & are still attending the classes regularly.

In memory---> Teaching a bunch of highly achieved sophisticated fluent English speaking some 30-year olds Filipinos&Chinese reverts IQra' .

I was feeling very inferior at that time. I was like only 16 or something. Teaching a very educated academically that is, adults, IQra'. Mind you, I even taught them how to write arabic letters. I was forced into doing that voluntary work actually at that time by my mother who persuaded me aggressively. But now, it has become one of my valuable experience and memory.

I don't know. These reverts, though they are not covering up their aurat properly but their will & want to know about Islam is admirable. YES, I do admire their steadfastness with Islam.

word of the day: DOS(Disk Operating System) :p

Wassalam~